About a year ago I felt a pull to dive into cosmetics and become an “influencer.” As a lifelong introvert who carries a fresh supply of social anxiety in her handbag, I was scared as hell to put myself out there. I had no idea where to begin, so I prayed about it, a lot. I thanked God for the opportunity and acknowledged that I knew He was guiding me to this path, even though I couldn’t figure out why.
I ordered my snazzy little makeup kit and started learning about the biz. I learned new techniques, and helpful tips and tricks to share. I watched my peers to learn from them. I recorded videos, I deleted videos, and I avoided going “live” for as long as I could. Once I finally did go live, it wasn’t too bad, but I still felt silly because essentially I was just sitting there talking to myself while putting on makeup. One thing I have learned through all of this is that consistency is key. Well, I am consistently inconsistent, so cheers to that!
As I have been puttering along through this “influencer” lifestyle, I continued to feel that it was important in some way, and that I was still on the path I was meant for even though I felt I was wandering aimlessly. I have learned lots of things and found myself entertained quite a bit. I personally have been influenced and bought way too many clothes, too many hair products, and too many cosmetic items… Wait, woah, what am I saying? We can never have too many of those things! Sheesh! Get it together girl!
Ok, I’ve regained my composure, and I may or may not have purchased another outfit in the process, but I digress. Now back to the task at hand.
Along this path of discovery, I have also encountered many true influencers who actually know what they are doing, and quite a few of them have touched my heart. As I have followed along on their journeys, and listened to their stories, I began to realize what mine was about. God put me on this path to help me grow, to help me learn, to help me heal, and to remind me that He is ever present. I don’t have to carry everything alone because He is right by my side, and He has supplied us all with an abundance of angels here on earth to help us stay focused and remember that He is never far. He brought me into this to be supportive and encouraging to others. What I do here is so much more than putting on makeup (which I haven’t done in a while, but hey, I am who I am). This is about realizing that you matter, that your story matters, and that sharing even the most vulnerable pieces of yourself can truly help give peace and strength to another. I have stories to share, and I am working on building the courage to share them because if my experience can help even just one person it will have been worth it.
I have also discovered the courage to pursue a new goal that I have always been interested in but have kept at bay out of…out of what? Yep, you guessed it, FEAR. Fear of what? Failure? Success? Listen, something I’ve realized in life is that fear is the devil, so don’t allow that to take up space in your heart and your head. And failure? Look, if you go after something that truly interests you and it lights a spark in your life, but then you find out it’s not for you, guess what? You didn’t fail. You learned something. No matter what it is, you just allowed yourself to learn something new, and you allowed it to help you grow. Finding out something isn’t a good fit for you is not the end of the world; it frees you to find out what does fit. Do I think I failed at doing makeup and “influencing” others? Nope. I found a purpose. I found a voice. I learned some new techniques. I got some awesome products. And I have had the opportunity to engage with some of the most amazing women on the planet. I will still share makeup looks and help others find what best suits their needs, but I also have much more to offer. So for me, I call that a success.
While I work at achieving my next goal, I will continue to share peace, love, and positivity because that is what I believe in. I will encourage you to embrace who you are, and to not be afraid to do the things you are compelled to do. Whether it’s makeup, hair, workouts, fashion; whatever moves you just roll with it. You will find your answers, and you will be pleasantly surprised. I will continue to allow myself to grow, and learn, and heal, and help others where I can. Remember, we are not in this alone. None of us. You may think what you are experiencing is something no one will understand, but I guarantee you there is at least one person in your life who can give you some reassurance and understanding.
Thank you to the ladies who have been inspiring me over the past year, and who continue to do so on a daily basis. I think you are all absolutely wonderful, and I am so glad God placed you on my path. Now I am going to get back to my inconsistent, social anxiety ridden, introvert lifestyle, and maybe y’all will get another blog post out of me in a few more months.
Stay safe out there.
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